What is most important in life is doing what you love.
You really can’t be happy or feel fulfilled if you’re not doing what you love.
You’ll certainly struggle at least anyway.
I’ve been there, tried it. I tried to just work a normal job whilst DJ-ing on the side and it was torturous. I was unhappy and constantly tired, and found myself trying to force myself to enjoy DJ-ing.
Now that I’m studying again, yes there are bumpy and worrying parts but ultimately I’m a lot happier now than I was just over a year ago.
There have been times when I’ve seen other turntablists play either live or online and thought “Why am I not that good?” I practice as much as I can but then life gets in the way and I have to go to work or continue writing an essay etc.
For example, when DJ Perly won the DMCs in the US this year, I felt inspired by her but also a little sad because I wished that I had the time to immerse myself and practice like she had. The negative thoughts subsided quickly, I’ll add, but they still happened. And I don’t like that they happened.
I have friends who have done TED Talks, been on Boiler Room and have done some amazing, awe-inspiring things, and that same negative buggy feeling came up when I watched thier videos or get a notification from Facebook, but I still felt proud and inspired by them. I’m sure you know what I mean?
A lot has been happening in my life that has left my brain feeling a bit frazzled and confused but whenever it happens (its a cycle I guess, it comes and goes), the things that bring me back to being centred and embracing myself once again does boil done to music. It doesn’t matter if I’m making a beat, mixing/playing out or just listening to some tunes, collaboratig wih other awesome musicians/djs/producers….music itself helps me realign myself back into into a more positive mindset.
My mixes tend to reflect what I’m going through at the time of recording/performing, whether that’s via the lyrical content, instrumentation or melodies, I don’t know. I don’t focus on that, I focus on the feeling of the track(s).
So one is coming soon. My mixer may be broken but a mix will be done regardless. I will not be defeated.
There have been times too where I’ve questioned my ability as a DJ, and I even wonder sometimes if calling myself a turntablist is fair.
I can’t scratch like Jon 1st, Jazzy Jeff or DJ Perly.
I can scratch… but in my own way.
They, and others, are very skilled and technical in my opinion, and they inspire me because of that and their individual styles too. Their feel for the music is unique to them and that comes across when they play/scratch.
And the same applies to me.
I know that there is only one “me” in the world, therefore everything i do is unique, so my feel and interpretation of how I scratch is unique to me.
That’s just how I see it.
Thanks for reading.